Tuesday, July 19, 2005
+ Byex.... +
My last entry....
Jux wanna say a big thank you to everyone who have supported me one way or another... who have stood by me all this while... esp after i got into the accident... sorry i never say abt my new blog here....
Sometimes life is really unpredictable... u never know what may happen next... just like me chancing upon tis old blog of mine by chance.. haha... mayb ur dun believe it, but oh well...
Anyway.. i have tot alot these few days....
Wad m i living for...? i hab asked myself these qns like.. a million times... when tings are not going ur way... when tings get realli sucky...
But take a step back n tink... wad are the tings that make u feel like u are not rotting ur life away? For mine...it has to be the lil lil tings i m learning each day.. de dreams i have... de goals i aim to reach....
I noe that tis may sound unlike me... haha.. i rearely analyse tings on my blog.. but after lookin thru my past entries... i hab 2 admit... my tinkin is quite different now... de way i view life.... de way i c life... hmmm..
life really is fraile isnt it...? U are healthy n fine 2dae... but tml... u find out u are diagnosed with cancer, or some fatal diseases.... de world jux came falling dwn... regrets will sink in... the frustration tots will make u feel depressed.... de selfish tots... n worse still... de possibility that u may not live to c tml.....
So y dun we grab the time we have now? the life that is embracing us... de friends who are with us each n everyday.. ur family.... de person u wanna express ur fondness to...
i sorta understand that life is ShORT....
i may c ya 2dae... but hu noes abt tml?
i m not tryin to be pessimistic... but sometimes i hab to tink abt these tings so as to understand life better... n tink more maturely.... YupX...
So.. its time i moved on.... n leave this sad n full of memories' blog...
Bye Bye bloggie....
*If things were better left unsaid, then i think its better of this way....*
LuRvE dE suN @ 9:57 PM
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
+ I wish.. i wish... +
t i r e d...
wished 4 a hot milo...
wished for my stomach 2 stop growling.. haha
wish tat my parents come home... not so tired...
wish tat i will stand strong
wish tat my touch rug skills wil improve
wish tat nothin is going thru my mind
wish tat somehow, tings are gonna b alrite
wish... wish...
i can get on wib life
jux like de way it is...
before i met him
before anything of these happened
before....
before...
wad ar...?
aiya... forgot wad i wanna type.. realli tired. dun wanna type le.
Budbyex... me go catch beauty sleep...
Wishing... everything is back to wad it should be like...
Simple. Nice.
LuRvE dE suN @ 11:02 PM
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
+ Let it go... +
So sad... cant get de bag i wanted...
Haish... wad to do..?
Dunno y...
Feel so sick..
Argh...
I wan the bag!!
Oh well... guess sometimes...
u gotta let go of some things..
When wil i learn tat...?
never mind...
***
As i sat on de
train...
there was this pain..
It started from de head..
I would rather be dead..
From the age of Thirteen..
i realised something
i m loses tings..
Without realising...
From something as little
Like a
ring..
To something so big..
Like a diary..
I admit sometimes...
I take things as it is
Never treasuring
Until the lost became a reality
After the lost of the gummy bear
i began to despair
So many things lost
Will i lose any again?
"Dun worry... whatever happen...
U wun lose me...
I promise..."
another sealed envelope.. opened.
I have lost something
Which dawed on me
Right when i was staring
At the gummy.
I finally found it
the bear i lost long ago
On someone else's
baghanging.. from a tag
there was the name
i hab wrote
On the tag
Hanging from the bear..
It came in a pair..
One blue.. one pink
Both are smiling...
So happily when we first got it.
Heart raced..
palm sweat..
Should i get it back...?
or should i leave it like that..?
Confusions set in...
Started coughing...
Until i cant breathe...
Like there's something blocking me..
Memories poured in...
Hey... Don't worry..
I Did not feel anything..
Just.. reluctance.. only..
Eventually...
I decided...
Althou its heartwrenching...
And heartbreaking...
Once things are said...
u cant take it back...
No matter how painful..
u jux hab to go through...
Since it hab found a new owner..
Who doesnt look like me..
Always losing things...
So.. y should it suffer with me?
Its hard...
No matter what...
Its lost...
Forever..
And so.. i decided...
To let it be happy
N end its misery..
Just... let go.
LuRvE dE suN @ 9:24 PM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
+ A day where i relaxed... +
2dae lessons ended at 12.. den on meet up wib Reina & mj.. so glad i went out wib dem wor... cos long time no c dem le!! missed dem so much....! haha..
Den on de way 2 meet dem at Dover MRT... saw Farid... den toked 2 him abit.. wa lao eh... knew sometin which made me damn pissed off... lucky ar... he neber did tings tat wil make me hate him sia.. haha! he told me cos he noe we good frenx ma.. wa lao eh. lucky he neber forget tat ar... n to tat fucker ar... Fuck u la asshole... to tink tat u wil do such tings... my god. u realli make me feel so disgusted wib u. FUCK OFF wib my life!
Ok.. dun care abt such disgusting pple. i m in a good mood... okok.. back to story..
Den we watched My bf is type-B... wahahaha... damn kuku show sia... so farni n yet... so sweet.. .lub it to bits... hehex... peeps... go watch la. its worth de 7 bucks. woohoo! hehex..
Den we went back home... cos all eating at home... den me & reina toked along de way back.. cos Mj takin de other way..den we eben sat at Jurong East platform there n tok sia... n we toked abt 1 hr w/o realising it! hahha.. toked abt life in sch... touch rugby... friendships... haha.. realli lub tokin to her... haha..
ah... miss touch rugby.... i pon de trng 2dae... den wonder how it goes... haix...! oh well... den de shoes is a big headache sia...
tokin 2 my Stinky now.... so poor ting sia, her vooice damn sexy sia..! haha... den ar.. me 2dae wake up xtra early 2 make honey drink 4 her.. hehe..
looks like my life's gettin back on track.... hehex...
LuRvE dE suN @ 8:28 PM
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Monday, June 06, 2005
+ Haha... +
Do u tink i care..? tat was owax wad stinky says.. but deep dwn.. i noe she care alot 4 me la...
Niewayx.. after yesterday nite... me tot alot...
Life is like a chocolate.. sometimes its bitter... but after tasting it.. u realise de sweetness in it...
Lesson learnt: live life to the fullest..!
no more bad ger le... no one to depend on le.. n lastly... no more negativity le...!
I ans 4 my own actions... yea.. So.. i hab 2 b responsible 4 me!
A guardian angel is hovering arnd... but tink abt it... how long is it gonna last??
2dae... feel like i m starting life anew... woke up early... reached there quite early... hehex.. record breaking wor.
If onli.. there's someting like a eraser in my head... i felt somewhat.. stupid 4 tinking of going drinking...
Mayb its de stubbornness in me barx... i kip believing tat.... de alcohol will like.. make my troubles go away... make me stronger...
But i was wrong... totalli n seriously wrong... it will make me feel worse. haix..
looking forward 2 Thurs de training..! hehex... miss de rugby ball so much....!!! yea.. i'm crazy abt touch rugby now...
Yesterday... xav asked me a qn which realli made my mood to sink 2 de lowest... dun wanna tok abt it le la..
ok... bad tings n tots thrown in2 de trash can... good tings kept..
still cant believe i actually saw jamie yeo in person!!!!!!!!!! argh!! missed de chance 2 take pic pic wib her!!!
Neber mind la... sandy happi can le.. rite?
*Anywayx. thx 4 de pep talk... u were de last person i wld hab expected to tok me arnd.. realli. althou i still dunno y u ar still reading my blog... but nonetheless.. i realli appreciate de help. thx.
LuRvE dE suN @ 5:39 PM
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
+ SEnsible sandy...? +
Haha... tats wad birdy kip saying 2dae when i was "window-shopping"... haha... cos i know my spendin power has dissipitated...
Hmm... well.. bought a belt... N spent largely on food...
Den.. played pool after Amos sang finished...
Proud of myself... cos cut alot of angles... at 1st no confidence de... den.. hehe.. got sense of achievement..
Feel like drinking again.. den.. asked daddy can drink anot.. cos he bought a dozen of beer...
Daddy abit shocked... den laughed...
Hmmm... y i suddenli like... learning bad tings lidat leix... when weiming cut in2 our grp... i jux scolded j* bai... den when de balls din go in... i jux scold f**k... den tat time still askde lydia bring me go clubbing...
Argh... i m giving pple de impression tat i m turning bad... i sneaked out de other nite... n walked arnd under my block.... played in de playground.... feel de night breeze.... it feel realli gr8..
Tat time when i was walkin home frm sch... i suddenli feel ike goin 2 de arcade... i din like arcade in de past... but it seems like arcade is my frustration venting place now... there was once... an ah beng asked me how old im... den i scold fuck off...
He luffed n scolded vularities at me.. den tis guy.. playin beside me... dunno which gang he came frm la... helped me lor...
Haix... den thank him n quickly ran off.. was so pissed off n tired...
Bird... u still tink i sensible? i m playin wib my life... goddammit...
i m sorry i neber tell u tis 2dae.. i din wan u to worry... arcade was de place we hab fun.. a place... where we dun hab 2 tink too much... sorry...
Someone... pls wake me up...
*Thx 4 de encouragement... i nid 2 get tis out myself, i noe.. but somehow.. someting which i duno wad.. jux made me fall deeper....
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:11 PM
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
+ Shitty life. +
Suddenli... my life is full of shit...
i hab to reach home early. to look after my younger bro. tats still alrite, cos i miss my mom's cookings.
But imagine... tired n weary from a day of lessons... u come home... of nobody. its definitely my 1st...
Both my mom & dad are working now... dad has tis new canteen at Tuas, which is damn freaking busi.. n suddenli... there's no more home cooked food. no more "Sandy! Go tidy ur room!"...
The potted plants are dying... n so is my heart...
i noe i hab to b strong. 4 myself, for my family. but whenever i tink abt de nearing to zero amt in de bank account... tears jux made its way dwn my cheeks...
Imagine... coming home 1 day... n find tat ur family members are all shagged. y? cos dey went to help out at ur dad's workplace. except u. n u hab been playin touch rugby. having fun. n yet, dey are slogging their hearts out.
my younger bro lay motionless on de sofa after he went to help out, my mom slept at 9+, which was so unusual cos she usually sleep at arnd 11+... my elder bro din use de internet... n when ur dad pat on ur shoulders n say, Ar u tired frm a day of lessons..? n its wib tis care in his tired eyes...
i can tell u... i felt realli guilty. i noe i can do nuts cos i m de onli one schooling... but i feel like... i m such a failure..
Eben my lazy elder bro is startin to help out wib household chores like folding of clothes... whereas i m still slacking in my room.. sleeping...
Wad de hell is wrong wib me..?
haix....
N i carn get de SB scholarship.
Life suddenli... sux.
LuRvE dE suN @ 11:26 PM
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Friday, June 03, 2005
+ Tis is the story of da ger... +
Well... tis story strikes me when i was on de train.. hahah... at 1st it was a song... but oh well... guess my "creativity" sorta goes bonkers 2dae... Well.. Anywayx...
Actually... i intended not to blog anymore... But to jux disappear jux lidat... i tink its not beri responsible, rite? N i m a responsible person... haha... okok... Shahida.. dun gib me tat -_-" face ok...
Well... for starters... i m realli loving my classmates now... it seems like everyone has their different personality n i realli respect tat N somehow... somewhat... i tink everyone is realli cool... Yupx, including u, Shahida. hahaha.. dunno y kip shooting tis poor ger leix.. mayb cos she realli like giving me de Duh~! face... wahaha. okok.. solli..
Hmm... hope tat we can be more united.. like.. .go everywhere in a whole grp... N not like... one grp one grp... like i tend to hang n chill out wib my boos... Shahida, Eileen, Melissa, Lydia, Felicia, Fauzia & Dawn. ya..
N yesterday... Touch rugby practise started. No, i shld say, for freshees to join in la. N there were only 2. haha.. den de other ger is called Joanna. N she left early. so me played de actual 6 on 6 wib de seniors. Boy, did i enjoy myself N hab truck loads of fun man. hahha..
Yea.. its pretty cool to be in touch wib de rugby once again. missed de days of playin wib my rogues, Reina & Mj. Oh man! hOpe to go out wib dem sooN!!! yea..
N during my training.. saw two friends.. 1st one was Kiong, haha.. de cutie Shahida said. he was my pj fren. N he shouted my Name!was quite embarrassed la. cos his frends were wib him. den de 2nd was Adrian. haha. not daddy la. is a fren i knew in my ex-workplace. ya. n he is like.. 25 n studying in SP. hahha... okok. mux not be so bad... kekekx...
After de training ended, went home alone n i was realli hungry. so i went 2 More than words n bought 1 string of MegaBoulders n jux chewed on it. ya. that's my dinner. cool rite..? keke.
N i ate pizza 2dae. hahha.
Lets c.. wad else did i do 2dae. hmm.. well.. nth interesting. if u consider walking to de convention centre wif de intention of watching de sucker in de ice cream vending machine sucking de ice cream out of de ice cream machine because there were no more ice cream in SB.. well.. haha.. den so be it la. haha... for more information... read de next paragraph.
Well.. as i was saying... de ice cream vending machine in SB could not produce any more ice cream n curiosity pricked us n de 4 of us, Lydia, Melissa, Shahida & me, went all de way to EEE block jux to look at how de ice cream got dispensed.
Then. we get our ice cream n de process was actualy... not wad we expected n not as amazing as wad Melissa made it out to be la. So. me saw tis sandwich machine beside de ice cream vending machine n i was like.. Oh cool, tis machine actually can dispense sandwiches!! So.. de min amt was 2 bucks n de highest was like.. 2.50.
Ok... so me put 2 bucks inside. N it said. Product finished. So. we "borrowed" 50 cents frm a total stranger, hu was a guy in red. N he said tat it was like a treat.haha. so. in we put. N de sign comes again. Product finished. ohmygawd.
Then we tried frantically to get de 2.50 back. but it was useless la. den lydia called. n dey concluded wib gettin pple dwn in late afternoon or tml mornin. N call her back to pay her back de refund.
Well.. if dey din, den i guess i will hab 2 calld e press. haha! hu ask dem to trifle wib DMC students. haha.
Ok. shall sign off le. take care over de weekend ok? c ya soon! Ciao! oh ya. lookin forward to de tan i m so gonna get tml. hehehex...
*waiting is a torture. but for u, i m willing to. will be behind u owax.
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:11 PM
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
+ Y is my life suddenli so sad? +
Good question, Sandy. haha.
i m sick.tired.hungry. yupx. too lazy to cook or put tings in my mouth n de tot of chewing jux put me off totally.
haix... no one at home except my bro hu coop in his room all day doin god knows what.
no nagging at me to get some food. or wadever. so.. i basically jux wanna slp, slp, n slp.
haix... pathetic life.. n i m running a fever. 37.5 degrees celcius. which i jux realised. ohmygawd.
wad to do.. jux slp lor. hope tat i will feel better when i wakes up. haix...
*The tot of no more dada made my heart sink to de bottom of de ocean.
LuRvE dE suN @ 3:52 PM
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Monday, May 30, 2005
+ Thank u Stinky... +
as de title suggests... i m gonna dedicate tis entry to mY beloVed stinKy...
Realli realli... love de tings u made 4 me orh...
The cookie in de cake box, de cheese cake wib de tasty & oh-so-nice crust at de bottom~, de bouquet of roses... yes pple... u ar not seeing tings... I actualli carried a bouquet of roses around campus 2dae....
N yes.. there are stares... but i m damn proud of it. cos... its from a person dear to me... haha... realli lub it so muCh... n de sweeet poem on de box... lub it!
N de testy cookie... de cookie itself is not Too sWeet... its jux rite... N de wordings *HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY WINKY*!! oh my god... N my dear fren actualli baKed 8 times...! yes... 8 times!!! n so sorry eh... caused ur hands 2 get burned in de process!! =(!!
Well... 2dae saw so mani Kranjians... hahax... dat Farid ar.. .damn farni lor... everytime saw me ar.. he will start tis *speech* lor... den dunno y... i jux smile, say bye N walk away.... hmmm...
Saw tis person i dun wanna c.... realli hate de tot of being in de same SCH wib him... i mean... oh well.. Wadever~ n sad ting... i neber c de person i wanna c all day... haish...
When i woke up... i was tinkin... haix... y bother switchin on my hp neh.. its not like.. .there will b any msg waitin 4 me 2 read... haix... den.. saw tis msg tat realli make me feel like... de waitin is actualli not in vain... but... issit actualli?? haix... den kinda feel down after tat...
2dae on de MRT to woodlands... recalled back loads of tings... like de times after work.. we will meet halfway betwn woodlands & bugis.. dat time when i cried in his arms after tat f**ker winnie gave me a lecture... its realli comforting to know tat some1 is owax there when u are down... isnt it?
But..guess 4 de time being.. i m on my own... yeap. i will take care of myself de... sandy can do it de..
N thx daddy... realli make me feel much better... believe in de belifs....
Tml endin sch at 12.... hahaha... den gonna head down to NYP 2 find my kakak... hahx.. mayb go find joan oso..? hehex...
*I wan de missing part of my life back. Badly.
LuRvE dE suN @ 9:55 PM
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
+ bUrfdaE bOo! +
Yea!! i received 17 burfdae smses!!!!!!!!!! hahha.... was counting all day long... N de last two comin frm Sharon & bao bAo... ehehx.. Thx!!!
2dae went 2 coffee bean... meet up wib couzzie.. long time no c her le..
Den.. told her abt wad happened... cos she asked how m i le... den pour out everitin lor..
Well.. feel much better after hearing her advice... ya...
1 life.. live it well...
Oh ya.. .Thx to everyone hu sent me de burfdae smses wor... hehex.. .1st time receiving 17 sia... ehehx.. .tis yr shall make more friends.... kekekx.. jokin la...
Well... sometimes... u jux gotta grow up N face reality... found tat... making 1 more fren.. is owax better dan 1 more enemy... after de pains N tears... guess... tinking will b straightened out eventually... heehx...
Mom told me sth 2dae in Chi ... After u fall... Stand up, brush your backside N its sunshine again...
Cant wait 4 sch to start!!!
** Please be strong
We felt so cheated
We felt like we're (all) ditched
At the same time
At the worst time
No one understand
No one took his stand
Till she asked him
What happen to him
Now she gives up
Now she wakes up
Day by day
Without him
We want to help
Yet we can't help
Please be strong
And hang on
We will be there
When you need us
We will be there
When you call for us
We love you dear
Please have no fear **
copyrighted frm Bird's blog... hehex...
Well... i hab waken up... no more dreams...
Sandy is growing up, hopefulli not in terms of size... hhaha... rather in terms of tinking...
N knowing she hab a gr8 bunch of supporters... she wil definitely stand up after tis painful fall...
Happi burfdae to me!!
yEa!!!
LuRvE dE suN @ 11:30 PM
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+ 17 yr old ger... +
tis yr.. i din get my bdae present tat i wanted so much... so badly.... i wld gib anythin i could... 2 hab it... which is 2 get him back....
Yesterday... or rather... de day b4.. i wrote a card.... did a jigsaw puzzle in 1 hr.... n gave him.. together wib de diary i wrote abt me & him.... hoping... he wld b touched... n we will b 2geder once agn....
N once again... silly me waited for him until he ended work...
Cried once... haix... me realli feel so nervous when i goin to c him...... its worse than goin for an exam man...
Den.. he walked me home again.... n told me de probs he faced...
i dun realli wish 2 say dem here... cos its his personal tings... but these probs... realli stand in our way... n sadly... de ending... is still a break... haish...
2dae went 2 watch madagascar... n althou i forced myself 2 turn away... but whenever i c couples... my heart realli stopped for several seconds... haix..
Its a fun movie... touching n farni...hab a good laugh wor..
N went 2 Party world... den.. suddenli feel like goin clubbing... den remembered him sayin b4... tat its not safe... so.. hack de idea in de end...
sang quite alot... haha... den ate supper until 11+... at 1st... de tot of askin him2 send me home came 2 me...
but den... tink abt it... dun wan la.. he so tired le.. later he miss de train again... jialat ar.. haha...
N i waited 4 a msg from him... a bdae wish i oso happi... but there's none... haix.... realli feel so sad... guess he's realli busi barx... ya... haix...
But anywayx... thx all de peeps hu msg me N wished me happi burfdae wor.. like... StinKy, pinky, birdy, sHan sHan, xue ting... ya... thx!
ken... i jux wanna tel u... No matter wad it takes... i m willing 2 wait... til de day we are back together again... Unless there realli is no more feeling... otherwise... i m gonna wait... how long it doesnt matter... it can be one month, two months, one year, 3 years.... bcos... no other guy... can make me feel de way i feel abt u... realli missed u muchx... haix... but i noe... we can onli b frenx 4 now.. n i respect ur decision.. n dun worry... i wil not create any more probs 4 u le... i guess de onli ting i can help u now... is to silently wei ni jia you... dun gib up... when there's a will, there's a way.. hang on there.... i noe de feeling is realli terrible rite now... but all i ask 4 u... is 2 realli take care of urself... whenever u need some1 to tok 2.. i m owax available.. 4 u... remember tat...
*Sometimes... fate can be realli cruel.. it bring two pple together.. n yet... it can oso seperate them.... leaving scars n tears....
LuRvE dE suN @ 12:40 AM
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
+ Single once again... +
11.03.05... the start... and 23.05.05... the end...
i still cant believe we hab ended... i still cant believe.... feelings will fade in jux 1 week...
de words u said last nite... are so cold...
Do u... for eben 1 sec... tink abt my feelings? after all the times when u asked me 2 tink abt u? tis time round...?
yes i cried... but so wad? did u eben care?
after all tat we've been thru...? de times u said... u are mine forever... de times u oso said... u are a part of me now...?
In jux 1 week... 1 week...
Jux when i hab changed n start 2 tink abt u... jux when... i hab giben my heart 2 u.... u break my heart to a billion pieces....
The day when we met after 1 week.... u can stil say i missed u alot.... n yesterday... u can jux say... i dun love u anymore....
do u noe tat.... loving a person.. takes alot of courage? jux when i plucked up my courage 2 gib it a try... when i noe u are some1 i can depend on... u take it all away....
Mayb i m realli not the gal 4 u... but y... did u make up tis fairytales... n made me... fall so deep N ask me 2 jux get up? its hard.... n i m afraid now... realli afraid.....
The words.. de words on my hp.... feel like stabs right thru my heart.....
*My heart is still aching.... Can someone... stop de bleeding in my heart?
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:05 PM
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Friday, May 20, 2005
+ Viper rox... +
I m back frm my 3 days camp!!! hahax.. got miss me guys??? oK... tiS entry will be wad i encountered these few days...
Ok... 1st very 1st thing tat i wanna share wib u guys is tat... i met tis incredible ger hu share alot of common points wib me... N we clicked. realli hit offf realli well... her name is Qing Xin N we hab tis pet name 4 each other... hahax.. she call me Winky & i called her Stinky.. there's a story behind it... hahax...
1st day....
Reached there at arnd 8.10... there was a miscommunication... i tot is 8 at tat time de briefing... she tot is 9.. so 2 play it safe.. we met at 8+.... den went 2 sch of business there... den was told tat we were supposed 2 meet at........ 12.... oh my go... can u imagine our shock? hahhax... so.. we went 2 put our tings in a room... N along de way... get 2 know JiaYi.... hahax.. she is in DBA (diploma in business admin)... N me & sTinKy were like...makin fun of her N stuff la... she was like... I m bullied by freshees!!! haha... damn funni..
So... me & StinKy went 2 Clementi 2 grab stuff 2 eat... N we went 2 NTUC 2 grab some snacks... hahax... N during tis short trip... we found tat we haB LOADS of tings in common... No jOke... for example... we are tanned... love sports.. she is a netballer... played for SRC(s'pore Recreational Club)... i m a swimmer... played 4 nth... kekekx... den.. we love FOOD... hahax... can u imagine? we spent most of our $$ on FOOD... hahhax... den... we love ice cream... Fiesta de cheese cake... chocolate.... btw.. she tried all kinds of brands.... wan a nice choc? ask tis expert... wahahha... N dunno y... we jux hab tis... chemistry... its creepy sometimes... haha..
Den we headed back... N needa choose our grp... by reaching in2 de pail N take out a wirstband.. machiam Nike tat kind la... N mine was yellow... n in she goes in2 de pail..N took out.......... RED... i almost cried.... But... she played tis game wib de person in charge... n she swopped in2 yellow... Phew...! but tis is supposed 2 b a secret betwn us la... hehex... so... kip it a secret ya? hehex...
N de day was quite boring.... started wib brain storming session of our grp name.. n she came up wib Viper... which was 1 of de teams playin basketball or netball in de national level i tink.. hahax... den our facilitator added a hyper... N we were called... Hyper Viper... hahax.. cool rite?? hehx...
At nite... there's tis formal dinner... i wore de peranakan shirt wib jeans... sort of formal.. but de jeans made it look less formal.. n stinky wore a spag n pants too... N den we ate a buffet meal... followed by dancing... hahax... performance by de facs N com members... gr8 i mus say... considered it was like... 2 hrs preparation? hahax...
Den.. reached our bunk... n we called it a night... zZz....
2nd Day...
Tis is a day of fun & fatigue.... haha..
Started de day wib breakfast... bread N kaya/peanut butter/strawberry jam.. & miLo... den.... played de 6 stations... where we ran arnd in SP... N de 1st 2 stations we lost... but de rest.. we beat all de teams.. de one which hab leave a deep impression in me is de Scissors paper stone... hahax... cos we mux run from one end 2 another... Den de team which gets all de members across will win... but at some point where 2 members meet.... deey will play de game la... but if u lose... u wll hab 2 go back...
Den... every1 hab gone 2 de other end le... left me onli... N halfway across... i hab lost 2 a ger.. N i quickly ran back 2 protect my territory.... 2 prevent dem from winning.. den.... i beat one by one... Until i reached their territory... haha... it was a tough fight... N de pressure being de last was so gr8.... ohman... hahax...
N de other 1 station which was beri impactful was de acting game... hahax... 3 in a grp hab 2 eat bread wib wasabi inside.... N we hab 2 guess hu is eating de bread wib wasabi in de opp team... N stinkywas not eatin de 1 wib wasabi la... but she act until she got eat lidat... oh my god.. she was so real!! tears were runnin down her cheeks... her face was red... den she eat until beri xin ku lidat lor... den when i turned 2 look at her... i almost cried too!! oh man!! my buddy!! den she looked at me N winked... hehehx...
N de opp team was fooled la... but dey won... cos dey guessed correctly... oh well.. we were famished by de time we end... N went 2 hab lunch...
Along de way... me & Qing xin were singing de song Pinky n de brain... hahha... den we called Jia Yi Pinky... N we were de brainies.. but i dun like... den we find words 2 rhyme wib Pinky... den we came up wib Stinky.. den she is called Stinky cos she sweat alot... hahah... all her shirts ar dry-fit... hhha.... n me called Winky... cos i like 2 wink... haha...
Den in de aft... we hab tis Amazing race.... where we headed out of SP... N went arnd de central area 2 look 4 clues 2 go 2 de next station.... n being de enthu grp... we ran all de while... from one place 2 another... hahax... imagine... tis grp of students... runnin in Suntec City? hahahax... f arni sia... but fun wor... got a sense of achievement... haha..
N we were de 1st... n last stop was City hall MRT de Raffles City... den... it started rainin... n de game was called off... so we headed 2 Starbucks n headed back 2 SP... where we were supposed 2 meet at 6pm..
At nite.. we hab tis competition... where we were supposed 2 dress up a couple... Ger to guy N guy 2 ger... hahax... den there's tis guy in my grp called Dave... same course as me... hahx.. he was damn funni la... wear his Spongebob squarepants BOXER N a trash bag arnd his waist which was his *mini-skirt*... hahax... den he walked until beri xin ku la... haha... N StinKy was de guy... so cute sia... wib a tie... den her hair was waxed in an attempt 2 make it stand but failed cos her hair was too long... haha... but we won it wor..
den we were shagged... realli tired... but we needa tink abt de act 4 de last day... n we tink until 2 plus... N den our brain was so wired up.. we wrapped up wad we tot up of N ucked in2 our slping bags... zZz...
3rd Day...
At arnd 3+... we were dragged out of bed.... my god... there was tis NIGHT walk... stupid la... den we hab 2 like... walk arnd SP... hahax... stupid la.. den was scared along de way by de FACS... hahax.. .but de farni ting was tat... me & Stinky were not scared la... cos we were chatting all de while.. N we werent bothered at all... haha..!
Den ended de night walk n headed back 2 our bunk... N zzz... missed him so much...
Woke up at arnd 7+.... cos needa prepare our performance... den we came up wib dance steps... de songs... hahax.... fun experience...
Den...at arnd 12... it was Show time!! hahax... althou it wasnt perfect cos we fumbled here N there.. we still enjoyed ourselves... thou i was dead tired & hungry... hahha... den.... we won de Best Grp... cos we hab de most points...hahx...
After de whole ting ended.. .we went 2 Clementi hawker centre 2 pig out.... ordered so much food sia... de Fish fillet meal beri nice wor.... hahha... but de Hong Ji de satay beehoon ar... SUX ar... haha... den went 2 Mac 2 tok tok... den took a cab home... she lived in Bedok n me... CCk... hahha..
Misses him so so much.. wonder wad my dar dar is doin? haix... neber got de chance 2 c him 2dae... so sad.... haix... neber mind... 2 more days 2 sunday onli... hehhex...
*Dar Dar....i looked at de sky for dunno how mani times le..... haix.... wanna hug hug u rite now....
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:15 PM
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
+ Argh!! I miss my dar dar!! +
2dae mornin sent my dar dar 2 his camp... went all de way 2 harbourfront... den ate breakfast wib him at de Seah Im hawker Centre... fishball noodle & yun tun mee.. hahax...
Den realli beri she bu de orh... on de MRT... look at him.. N tink... ohmygawd... i m gonna b without him for 6 days... 6 DAYS.. my god... cant eben tolerate 1 day... much less 6 DAYS... argh... feel like hugging him now.... regret neber hug him b4 he went 4 to join his frenx... haix...
Yesterday nite made 6 hearts 4 him... wrote wad i will wanna say each day... hehex... hope he will feel touched... hiak hiak... den he gave me a letter too.... me read him on de way back home alone... almost cried.. haix...
Dar dar.. u hab left me for 5 hrs... but i misses u alrdy.... muaxxx... hope sunday come faster...... haix....
*U said b4... how much u miss me shows how much u love me... N its the same 4 me... lub u muchx....
LuRvE dE suN @ 12:57 PM
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Monday, May 16, 2005
+ A night under the stars.. +
mE now at my dAr dAr hse blogginG wOrx... hehex...
Yesterday spent the whole nite wib my dar dar at East CoAst park worx... hehex....
After work.. which was my last day btw... me waited 4 dar dar n we went 2 Eunos n took bus no. 13... den.. went there... N sat on tis huge rock... hahha.. but de tide quite high de neh...so we sat awhile den went 2 a shelter..
den on tat rock... when we loked up.. de stars littered de whole sky n it was realli realli beautiful.. N i was tinkin wor.... Being in de arms of ur loved one... under de beautiful sky... hearing de waves crashing against the rocks.. it is realli a blessing wor...
Then he kept vigil all nite wor.. so touched... N on de bus he was like.. nodding off every now & den... hahx...
Den we jux went 2 hab breakfast... later goin out again le orh...
hMm... dAR.. will miss u like hell during de six days camp........ haix..
*Missing someone is a blessing.. Having someone tinkin of u every nite... its someting called happiness...
LuRvE dE suN @ 9:29 AM
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
+ Gib me 2! +
2dae... is our 2nd month anniverary wor... hehex...
Yesterday.. went 2 bbq at woodlands... den there was some unhappiness there... but overall.. i enjoyed myself N hab quite alot of fun... hehex... den.. after de bbq ended... me .. dar dar.. n 2 of his frenx at sg there sat at dar dar hse downstairs de kopitiam tok until tis morning... hahhax..
Surprised rite? i can actualli taun de whole nite... den reach home.. jiu sleep N sleep le... until 3pm.. den wake up... haha..pro rite? Niewayx... yesterday went 2 watch House of wax wor... ohmygawd... its so gruesome sia... but unlike BOOGEYMAn... tis movie actualli hab story plot... hahax.. which by de way was quite interesting la..
N 2dae went 2 ORchard... cos we wanted 2 eat Fish & CO... so we went 2 Centrepoint de.. N ordered Seafood platter for 2.. wow.. nice sia... realli beri nice... 2 thumbs up sia.. den.. went 2 Far East N walk walk... look 4 a dress 2 wear 2 de formal nite during de last nite of my camp... but de dresses i tried ar either too formal or dey made me look FAT.. ohman... hahax.. but good side... i bought a tank top!! n its a green one... de color my wardrobe dun hab... hahax...
Den... on de way there... he let me listen 2 tis song by Angela Zhang... dunno wads de title la.. den yesterday me kip singing de chorus... den 2dae he let me listen 2 de whole song... felt so touched neh... den dunno y.. lean on his shoulders... i recalled de times we spent together... de little little tings he did 4 me... de obstacles we went thru... N somehow or rather.. tears jux dropped.... So glad tat i hab such a wonderful dar dar orh..
*Dar dar... i jux wanna tell ya tis... i realli realli lub u... N i dun wan 2 let u leave me again... I cant imagine wad would life be... without u... without your warm hugs.... N ur warm smiles... lub ya so much tat i sometimes.. i can jux burst wif happiness worx... N... remember... every 11th of de month... we will spend it together... gou gou shou N gai zhang wor..
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:32 PM
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
+ Forever Love? +
Yesterdae went wib dar dar 2 Queensway... N we sort of quarelled orh.... Haish... sometimes.... realli dunno wad he tinkin... N he would go all silent.... like tat time when Max was on de train wib us... den when he sent me home... he din eben wanna hold my hands...
Den... i oso quite pissed off la... cos er... dun tink i shld say it here... haha..
After tat... on de bus.. we wrote wad we felt on my beloved postcards... until i feel so sick... cos de bus is moving ma... n i fell asleep... after i woke up... he gave me tis postcard... er.. actualli its mine la... but he used it N wrote on it...
den we went 2 lot 1... den i ordered de Mother's day cake... den we went 2 de park...n we talked it out la... den everything ok le lor... hehex..
All's well ends well...
*Dar square... i jux wanna tell u tat... no matter wad happen... i will still love u de orh.... hehex... forever love wor... muax...
LuRvE dE suN @ 12:50 PM
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Monday, May 02, 2005
+ today... +
Dar dar n me went out orh... spent de whole day at Orchard..
1st stop... Far east! hahax... oh well.. jux walk n walk.. din find anitin nice piece of clothing... tat suit me la.. so... went 2 Heeren... den go up.. walk awhile.. den went 2 eat NYDC!! hehhex... my fav eating place... me ate three amigos... *as usual* de set lunch... N dar dar ate roast chicken spaghetti set lunch... nice nice too..
den de bill was cheap too.. cos i used de Cleo coupon.... it was onil 19.90.... each person was onli 10 bucks... hahax... den... went 2 Cine...
hehex...finally bought my sandals!!wooHoo~ den... we walked all de way 2 PS... N drank sugar cane juice... den.. walk somemore... N went home le.. cos hab 2 b home 4 dinner...
Hmm... sometimes... i feel so incredible... 2 hab such a wonderful bf.... althou we hab quarrels.. but we owax managed 2 solve dem peacefully... N so happily... n i feel tat we ar eben closer after each quarrel wor..
Den yesterday... when he called me during closing time.... in de toilet... jux bcos... he missed me... ohmygod... i was so touched worx.. .so sweet of him... aww.... hehehx... lub him so muchy... muax!
*Dar dar.. i lub u so much... dun wanna let go... muax.
LuRvE dE suN @ 10:12 PM
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
+ Haish.. +
2dae ended work at 4... was supposed 2 end at 5... was ecstatic when i heard i can go off earlier... cos can c my dar square... he workin full sia.. den shld break at arnd 5...
so me quickly head 4 woodlands... when reachin sembawang.. he called... den de 1st ting he said was.. u go strt 2 cck la... i quite tired n hungry... den i quiet 4 a few seconds.. "orh ok lor..." my heart.. instantly broke eh..
den he say... nevermind la... u come.. hmm... den i say ok lor... den i tot... wad if i was de 1 workin full... den at breaktime.. he say wanna meet me... haix... dunno leix... confused.. 1 hand... scared wil like... disturb him lidat... de other hand... dunno y he sound so sianx... mayb 2dae a busi day 4 him barx.. den me msg him... neber mind la.. i go strt 2 cck... u stay at there n eat.... later at nite u knocked off le msg me...
den he called... i reachin woodlands le... den he say u come la neber mind... den i get off lor.... den walk walk... hahax... N its like... 15 min onli eh... mayb some of u can say i m foolish... but den 2 me... can c him 4 eben 1 min... i oso damn happi le....
den reached home... jiu kana nagged... sianx... hmm... awaitin 4 his phone call... miss my dar square so much....
*imu alot...
LuRvE dE suN @ 8:24 PM
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